God does not deliver you from the storm… He guides you through it!

I opened my life up yesterday to something very personal with the hope that someone, somewhere reads it and knows he or she is not alone out there in the storm.

When things are at their worst it may seem that the storm will never stop and there will always be something. Something stopping you from living the life you dream about, but you are not alone.

As one of my friends put it on Facebook yesterday… regarding my blog, "showing our vulnerability and eventual resilience is an important aspect of teaching others how to persevere"

I could look back at the last few months and ask why or I can get up today and just wonder and be amazed that I have a chance to do what I love to do and be with who I love to be with.

I love writing and I know that when I write, I feel better. But I also know that while I was not writing I was supposed to be where I was and for some reason, God only knows why, I needed to be doing what I was doing.

There will come a day when the light shines in your eyes and you will "Get back on the horse"!

Health and Happiness!

Bill

While I was away…

I sit here and ponder all that has happened since I stopped writing back in October of last year and I can tell you this, October 2013 through January 2014 kind of sucked. Just when you think you are on top of things the universe shows up with a challenge and changes the landscape of your life.

I was doing everything I had set out to do… writing every day, enjoying my work and building my business, studying to better my MAT skills, working out, and trying to be a good Dad and boyfriend everyday. But then I get hit with the bad news that my girlfriend has cancer and must first go through an operation to remove it and then treatment, radiation for almost 7 weeks. "Crap! You're kidding, right?"

Now she is fine, "Cancer Free" and except for some of the effects left from the radiation treatment (those suck!), we both have a renewed outlook about life. But I have to tell you, I was angry there for a while. 

I stopped writing, I stopped working out, I felt like I got hit by a truck… and I wasn't the one with cancer. But you sit and watch your best friend go through something like that and it changes you.

How could I write and enjoy my life when the person I love gets hit with such a thing? I tried my best but once she had her surgery and then while she went through her radiation treatments, the only energy I had was for her and to take care of my son. Writing, trying to inspire others and even working or taking care of myself seemed like the last things I wanted to do.

Ultimately, I did what I had to do… and as I ask myself those important 3 questions in past tense I can only come with:

• When I was doing it!

• Who I was with!

• Be in the moment!

So I am back on a streak of writing, albeit 2 days, what comes tomorrow I don't know, but today I write with life looking pretty good as I know I am where I am… If I was supposed to be somewhere else… I would be there. Thankfully with the most wonderful friend a guy could have.

I love you D!

Health and Happiness!

Bill

Question Answered!

The conversation goes something like this, while watching a sporting event on TV with a good friend.

My Friend: Dude you need to get back on the horse and start writing!

Me: But what is there to say?

My Friend: What is there to say?!?! What isn't there to say? Everyone has something to say out there!

Me: Exactly! What am I going to say that is any different? There are so many experts out there… You really think people are going to take the time to listen to one more?

Just then on the TV we hear the voice of Robin Williams and turn our heads to listen to him say…
"We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for. 

To quote from Whitman, "O me! O life!… of the questions of these recurring; of the endless trains of the faithless... of cities filled with the foolish; what good amid these, O me, O life?" 

Answer. That you are here - that life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. That the powerful play *goes on* and you may contribute a verse. What will your verse be?"

Question Answered!

It is good to be back.

Health and Happiness!

Sincerely,
Bill